"Of all the kisses I have shared with different guys, yours was different and the best cause those kisses we've shared were real!:)"
It started couple of months ago, some time in 2009. Everybody is always mentioning his name in gossips and even my homosexual P.E teacher never failed to insert his name during our discussion. Many have said that he was really handsome, has a pleasant attitude, and a killer smile. Most of all, he has a stunning and gorgeous body.
As a curious person, I always wanted to see him personally but I could not because he was too elusive. He was a working student by then, striving hard to finish his studies. I was really impressed. Suddenly, I developed some strange feelings towards him although I haven't seen him yet.
On the start of our 2nd term class in Earth Science(Physics10), I saw a man sitting on the 1st table which happened to be located in front of me. He was so attractive that he drew all my attention the whole period. After the class, I immediately approached a friend and asked for his name. Surprisingly, he was the man the whole college was talking about. I was so happy that I have finally seen him. And I thought to myself that this was the opportunity I've been waiting for--to know him better. Unfortunately, he was always absent in our class so I really never have the chance.
My friends told me that he has a girlfriend already. I knew it for I've already seen them together in a fast food chain which happened to be my favourite place. But I never cared. The hell I care anyway. He was just a usual crush of mine. I could never have him just like the others. As usual, I have to accept my fate.
I have already forgotten him during the summer that passed by.
A new semester had begun for 2010. I was in my major class on the 4th floor of Education building, Thursday. I don't know why but I suddenly saw a vision of a man who used to walk on that corridor and it was him. I suddenly missed him for he had no longer studied in our school. What goes into my mind, I just found myself asking for his mobile number from his friend, i really don't know. His friend reluctantly gave me his number. And from the moment I received his number, I sent him a message of "hi". Amazingly, he replied immediately. It feels like having a textmate for the 1st time. I pretended that I don't know him and he also did not gave me his real name. So it was never a 100% assurance that it was really him. Suddenly, he asked me to see him in person which I never hesitated.
That was a rainy Saturday afternoon of June. I went at his place together with a friend because I was really shy in meeting him alone. OMG! After how many months of not seeing him, finally, he's there standing in front of me. Truly he was a gorgeous masterpiece of God. He was wearing at that time a cap, white tshirt, jeans, and a pair of sneakers. His simplicity really thrilled me to the bones. weeeh. I can really feel that my hands and toes shaked. Everything was in slow motion. I felt that I'm going to have fever. My hands were too cold to offer him a hand shake.
He invited us to enter in his room because their lobby was already wet. The room was spacious with two double-decked beds placed near a single window, a medium-sized cabinet and an a miniature electric fan. As expected in a boy's room, it was a little bit messy but it's okay. His roommate was present at that time so I came to know him also. He was chubby with a dark complexion and a fair height for a man who studies at a university in our town and works as a part timer in a fast food chain at night. But he did not stay there for too long and left the 3 of us.
Everything was unusual and uncomfortable by the time he started to be too sweet at me. He was like a vampire who haven't tasted a blood for too long. He hugged me so tightly that I thought he has no plan of letting me go. Whispering some words of appreciation and longing suddenly paralyzes me on my seat. Goosebumps were all over my body. My body was there but my mind was flying in nowhere. Suddenly, I was awakened into reality when my friend asked him if where is the comfort room located and he gave him the direction reluctantly. And by the moment my friend left the room,..........(s***).......he had given me a deep and soft kiss which I never expected. What a sensation!!! I was suddenly hypnotized. I lost all the energy that I have. I just found myself returning all his kisses.(wtf!!) In my entire life, that was the first kiss I have without being drunk. Whew! How I wish that night would never end but it has to. There's no such thing as unlimited night.
The hardest part of that day was saying goodbye. But before we separate our ways, he gave me a tight embrace. I was so sad but we promised to see each other again but for how long will it take just to see him again. I know that it was never right. He already has a girl but I don't have mine. He loves her but he likes me i suppose. I can feel it. Why would he risk their relationship that lasts for a year already? I don't know what's going on with his mind. He never mentioned about his girlfriend anyway. Why would I care? As long as we're happy with each others' company, mistake would never exist.;)
"I don't care what other people might say. As long as you're here with me, everything's okay!!;)"
